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it's been a while...
date: Monday, November 06, 2006 time: 10:39 AM

more than a month since i had been here...

well, my bro had passed his ME board exam.
Praise God!

we had a thanksgiving party last weekend & more than 300 came...

well, my pa & ma are already planning for my thanksgiving by december & i haven't even registered for taking the board exam yet...
hahay...
i guess every1's expecting me to make it.
a lot expect me to do more...
hahay...
so, if the odd would happen <& i pray to God that it won't>, PLEASE... NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE for even just a minute for i'd definitely be at a high risk for suicide!

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date: Thursday, August 24, 2006 time: 1:04 PM

i can't believe i haven't written anything here for the past 6mos!
i used to be so into this before...
but anyway... maybe this is how it works...
i simply had gotten over blogging.

i had thought once too many to simply delete this blog.
but somehow, i couldn't click the button.

maybe i simply want a reminder of my nonsense, my stupidity and my youth...

haha!

anyway... it's going to be september in a few days...

am i nearing my deadline?

hahay... i wonder.

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parang kami pero hindi
date: Tuesday, February 07, 2006 time: 2:51 PM

this is my reply to a forwarded email that Tenoy sent...

reply ko:

hehe.... parang kami pero hindi...

igo man kaau ko ana oi! ^^
email na lang ta oi... la ko pangtext sa globe oi. hehe.. nganu btaw na nagbalhin ka... ^^

anyway... nawala na tong akong samsung na phone in my own room! laliman ka ana! hahay...

about eric.... don't be swept off ur feet too soon... k?

^^ a charmer will always be a charmer.

A CONFESSION

about pol... hehe... parang kami pero hindi...

we actually started as pseudo-relationship. nagkatotoo.. now it's back to a pseudo-relationship again...

anyway... the reason why we broke up is hard to understand. we both know we have to break up.

but i know he loves me. & i do love him still.

as in i could bet a million pesos for that... hehe ^^

no he doesn't give me chocolates & flowers as the story below.

but yes, i could call him in the middle of the night to get me if i got no choice.

because he is my boy bestfriend & i guess that leaves him with little choice.

we still see each other. we date. we talk a lot.

i could call him when i am in deep shit & he's there. He would always rescue me...

but yes... i do end up crying at night.

i don't know where our relationship would end.

but i guess my relationship with him would be forever... my boy bestfriend.

at times i am convinced that i am in love with him.

& yes guess i did tell him that. & i wasn't drunk. he wasn't drunk either....

at times i would dream my dream house with him in it.

but no, i couldn't and wouldn't have an "us" anytime soon with him.

he clouds other plans that i have.

he makes them fade.

i think i have a calling to do a ministry for God.

& he would nterfere with it. if he's beside me, i want would want to stay right there...

i am going to be a missionary... full time... if i get to top the board.

that's my sign.

diba? we are to choose a sign with a very low probability of occuring...

i know i could make it... but anyway.. so can other pipz...

so that means... the chances are still slim.

i've told a few about it. but no1 has ever believe that i meant it seriously.

my parents would be against it.

i know they would never believe i could do it. nor that i could survive with that.

i was bad and naughty.

i still am.

but anyway...

pray na lang ko ani ^^

mwah!

ms u, noy!

God bless us always

khristine garcia wrote:

> Parang Kayo, Pero Hindi.
>
> She is a 24-year old copywriter. He is an architect. They met and became
> lovers in college. They broke up last year but remained to be
> "friends."
> They send sweet text messages and he calls her often to make sure
> she's
> okay. They still date. They still have sex.
> They don't see anyone else. It is obvious that they still love each
> other
> but when asked about their situation, she doesn't know the real
> score. Even
> her friends are in the dark. "Parang sila, pero hindi."
>
> She works in a telecom. He is reviewing for the board. They are in
> the same
> barkada. They talk on the phone till 4 am. He gives her chocolates,
> flowers
> and CDs even when there is no occasion. Their friends are suspecting
> something. Bakit sila nagsosolo kapag may overnight inuman? Why does
> he hold
> her close on the dance floor? Bakit sila magkaholding hands lagi?
> Sila kaya?
> "He hasn't admitted anything," she rants. "But I let him hug and
> kiss me.
> Parang kami, pero hindi."
>
> They work together in an ad agency. After office, they would watch
> movie,
> have dinner and stroll at Glorietta. She gave him Harry Potter books
> for his
> birthday in exchange for posing as her boyfriend to make an ex
> jealous. They
> made out during the company outing in Subic and never talked about
> it. He
> said "I love you" once but she wasn't sure if she heard him
> correctly
> because they were both drunk then. But one thing she is sure of is
> her
> feelings for him. She likes him. And she's assuming that with what
> he's
> doing to her and with her, he likes her, too. There's just one
> hitch: he has
> a girlfriend!
>
> She is a 28-year-old virgin. He's a 35-year-old bachelor. Both
> mountaineers,
> they became close during their climbs. After a few dates in posh
> restaurants, he brings her to his condo where they would make out.
> They have
> been doing this for months. She wants to believe that "sila na" but
> then
> she's not really sure about it. "We don't talk about it but it
> doesn't
> really matter," she'd tell her friends. "What's important is I am
> enjoying
> this -- whatever it is."
>
> The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual
> understanding. Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends.
> Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase
> where the
> persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers.
> Puwedeng may
> verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have
> admitted your
> feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the
> talking for
> you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa.
> Pero sa
> kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.
>
> This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for
> different
> reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still love each other,
> and you
> want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason. A nd for
> reasons
> that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.
>
> It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong
> nakikiramdam.
> Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian
> lang muna.
> Testing lang.
>
> Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo --usually
> the guy
> --may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon
> sa gir
> l
> (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa),
> wala muna
> kayong relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwa kasi "hindi
> naman
> kayo."
>
> This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na kung
> naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro."
>
> Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala
> talagang
> kasiguraduhan.
>
> So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi
> naman
> sigurado kung may patutunguhan?
>
> Iba't ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang.
> Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa w ala" or puwede na iyang
> "pantawid-gutom."
> Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa
> kunwa-kunwarian.
>
> For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think
> that
> pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would
> be fun,
> if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling.
>
> Aminado naman ako na once upon a time, may mga pseudo-relationships
> din ako.
> No commitments involved. For the simplest reason that they couldn't
> commit,
> because they were either committed to someone else, or that they
> weren't
> ready to commit.
>
> My rationalization, "okay na iyun, kesa wala."
>
> Ang habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong
> nagtatanong kung
> kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing. Iyong kapag
> tumunog
> ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa kanya
> ang
> message. Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa ang the real
> thing,
> puwede na itong pagtiyagaan.
>
> But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship,
> the
> emotions were real. And usually, in this kind of set up, ang babae
> lagi ang
> lugi.
>
> Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a
> relationship, you
> can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga
> ba
> magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your
> role in
> his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if
> you feel
> jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it to yourself.
> Ano ka ba
> niya para magselos?
>
> Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him? You can't be
> sure if he
> feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya.
> Even if
> you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't. Because you're
> not sure
> if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang.
> This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the
> relationship.
> Or if there is a relationship at all.
>
> Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much?
> What if you have invested all your emotions and this man hasn't?
> What if you
> remain faithful to him, not entertaining other guys, only to find
> out that
> he is seeing other girls?
>
> Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a
> disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would
> be the
> end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan
> ka
> lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan.
> Kasi sa
> pseudo-relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me,"
> hindi "us."
>
> Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi
> eh. Real
> pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo-relationship, hindi mo
> maiwasan
> umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And you will be
> miserable,
> hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out
> eventually that
> the guy is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody else.
>
> Ang h irap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then
> you'd end
> up hurting yourself in the process.
>
> Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh. Puwede naman na hindi mo
> muna isipin
> ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the
> consequences.
>
> But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the
> process,
> kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live the moment without
> worrying
> what would happen next. Or you can stop settling with
> pseudo-relationships
> and wait for the real thing.
>
> When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship with an unavailable
> guy, a
> friend told me, "Sige, kung ayaw mong magpapigil, bahala ka.
> Magpakasaya ka.
> Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak pagkatapos, dahil tatadyakan kita."
>
> Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo.
> Ihanda mo
> lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo pero
> hindi" stage
> ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang doon lang siya ...
> almost, but
> not quite.

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hahaaay...
date: time: 2:20 PM

wala lang....

i just feel tired and kinda tamad...

hahaaaay

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i did her make up ^^
date: Tuesday, January 17, 2006 time: 10:45 AM

the bride's been in our family since i was 10 years old.

so, my Mama & Auntie Bebing are like her second mothers...^^

last Sunday, Jan. 15... i was her make-up artist. i also did her wedding cake ^^ hehe...
wala lang...

the wedding went well.

it was really simple. it wasn't grand like the other weddings that i've been to but it was one done with love!

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feliz navidad! ^^
date: Wednesday, December 21, 2005 time: 12:47 PM

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date: Monday, December 12, 2005 time: 9:45 AM

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pix taken right after the seminar we sponsored ^^
date: Sunday, December 11, 2005 time: 12:44 PM

serious kuno ^^

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pacute lang...

anyway... the seminar went well. not really as planned but we had good feedbacks from our advisers & classmates. so, i guess it was ok enough ^^

miss you all!
mwah ^^

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